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Sunday, 07 February 2010

  • Why the huge big ridiculous deal about Tebow's Super Bowl ad? Come on. Really? Is this Jr. High?
    Everybody who had a cow about it must be feeling pretty dumb right now. They barely even said anything. What was there to be a freaked out about? It is pretty funny to me to think about Planned Parenthood's strategy on this one. Without knowing what Focus on the Family was going to do, they made such a big stink about it that they effectively made sure everyone in America was watching it. They even went so far as trying to get it off the air - like the "freedom of speech" thing only applies to people who agree with them. (Just like their idea that choice is only good if you choose to agree with their choice.) If they had just shut up about it and ignored it, half of the world would have missed it - talking about the game and eating chips. What was it? 30 seconds? It's amazing how many spoofs are already hitting you tube in a lame attempt at a comeback for a "slam" that never really occurred. People need to find something better to do with their time.

Tuesday, 02 February 2010

Tuesday, 26 January 2010

  • So I gave up Dairy

    Errr... well, I have mostly given up dairy. (Apparently it is hidden in quite a lot of things including carmel food color) I did some research this past year on Chronic Fatigue (something I was diagnosed with as a teenager) and almost every source I went to said to give it up. Crazy huh? I guess it actually takes more energy to process dairy than you actually get back from eating it. I also have very low blood sugar and guess what I was doing to help with that? Yep, I was drinking milk or chocolate milk or milk with carnation instant breakfast, or eating cheese or yogurt. It didn't help and I couldn't figure out why. Eventually I started experiencing mono-like symptoms again - this is not good when you have 3 preschoolers at home. Anyway, I did my research and cut out most dairy products and voila... I have energy again. And, I have had significantly less struggles keeping my blood sugar up too.

    Here's the other thing. It has given me a new attitude about food in general. I have a few passions in life. I love God, my family, writing, art and food. But, it is so easy to let everything else in life go away when I am focused on one of my passions.  I have known many many people who have struggled for years with weight issues or diet issues (I have obviously had my own issue too - that you know about if you have read my last blog). The problem is that we let passion for food become obsession and we can't get past it. We very excitedly jump on the food trends bandwagon. We count calories, drastically cut down on things we actually need (like carbs - that was a dumb one), we go "light" or fat free, or try to control portions, etc. I'm not saying that any of these is bad. Its just that all these things continue to keep our focus on our obsession and making it healthier or more organic or whatever. We can still love food but with more "control". When I gave up dairy it sucked. Honestly, I hated that I had to eat burritos without cheese and sour cream. I crave glasses of milk and bowls of ice cream all the time. But I feel healthier every day and I get over my cravings, drink a glass of water, eat something else I maybe don't love so much and move on to other things. Food is now mostly just something I do to make sure I stay healthy and have energy. It hit me the other day that the obsession is gone. Gone! Just like that. I still love to bake and cook but I just think different about it now.

    So here's my theory: maybe what we need is not another "diet" or trend but something that moves food from the problem / obsession category to some other place. Try it. If you have a food obsession issue, try cutting out something that will drastically change your diet without being nutritionally unsound, something that might, heaven forbid, take a bit of the "joy" out of food. Aren't there better things to focus on anyway? Maybe we just shouldn't love food so much. I have plenty of other things in life that are so much more fulfilling. Why do I need to spend so much passion on that one? Believe it or not, the list of things we can survive without is long. A person can give up dairy or gluten or refined sugar (I try to stay away from high fructose corn syrup too) or MSG if you are a chip lover. . .

    Am I being ridiculous?? Thoughts??


Monday, 18 January 2010

  •    I've had a bad friend. I was trying to tell the girls at church about it last night but all my thoughts were jumbled. Maybe I can write it better??
       It was the kind of friend that you stay close to because they give you some sense of security and acceptance... even if it is all ingenuine and shallow. You know? They make you look good and at least they let you tag along, but they really just make you feel like crap all the time. When it's just you two, and I guess even in front of everyone else, you just know you are not enough and you never will be. I clung to my friend like a life raft. My life was a mess and nobody knew it. I bottled up every hurt and every disappointment, every failure and every lame or stupid thing I did. I covered it all and hid it away and I used my friend to project an image to the rest of the world that I was okay and acceptable. My friend made me look good on the outside and that's about it. I'm talking about my eating disorder. I guess it's a bit odd to think of it as my friend, but that is how I saw it. In our world skinny is okay. Skinny is good and desirable. I can do skinny on the outside to make me look acceptable while I try to fix all the mess on the inside. This what I did faithfully. That is, until I realized I couldn't fix me. And, I could never make myself feel adequate enough or worth loving. Every relationship I had might have seemed okay on the outside. I didn't cause much trouble or go looking for conflict so most people liked me and some loved me even. But, I always, in the back of my head, would trump their affirmations with the thought that they only liked what I was projecting for them and I was so much more. If they really knew me and all my mess they wouldn't love me at all.
        Then, I had a conversation with God. It only happened after I threw in the towel and gave up the charade. I was tired of trying, so I stopped. And that is when the fog lifted and I finally got it. He looked at me and saw straight past it all. I have never experienced anything so penetrating as that. To have someone look at every wrong move, every motive and attitude and action and thought and hurt and hope... I have a hard time even putting it in words. But, He looked at broken me (through me really) and just whispered "I love you." That undid me. I will never be the same for that moment. To be really intimately known and still loved - isn't that what we all really crave? I traded friendships right then and there. And, though I am still learning the art of trust, (laying completely open for someone) I have a security that I couldn't have possibly imagined before. Hope. Peace... He is real. I know He is.

Tuesday, 05 January 2010

  • Potato Pancakes at last

    Okay, first of all I would like to say that I successfully cooked 2 turkeys this holiday season. I was in charge of the Turkey on Thanksgiving as well as Christmas. It is not as hard as I thought it would be. I feel a sense of accomplishment now. Yay me!
    I'll check that off my list of "out of my comfort zone" food experiments for the year.

    And now for the recipe you have all been waiting for...
    Pam's Potato Pancakes

    Start with basic pancake batter as follows (or you could use a pancake mix)

    1 c. flour + more if too runny
    2 tsp baking powder
    1 tsp salt
    1 tsp sugar
    1 cup milk
    1 egg
    1 tbs oil
    Mix the dry ingredients and the wet separately then mix together

    Then...
    Use a cheese grater to grate two medium sized potatoes and about a cup of cheese (we like sharp cheddar)
    dice about 1/2 c ham (you can use lunchmeat if you want - we used leftover Christmas ham and it was soooo good.)
    diced onion and garlic and whatever else you want as much as you want (chives...)

    Mix these into the pancake batter, add some season salt and fry them up!

    *Be sure to cook them over MEDIUM LOW heat. They are super thick and hearty and if your heat is up too high the outside will cook and the inside will be runny. They take a bit longer than a normal pancake but they are worth it.*

    Enjoy! Sounds weird but they are amazing with sour cream on top. These are not your normal pancakes they they will fill you up quick. My husband loves them.

    *going to have to fix this recipe now that I am not doing dairy... hmmm*

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    • Name: Pamela
    • Birthday: 3/18/1981
    • Gender: Female
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About Me

  • Married for six years to the love of my life. Living with our three babies in the small fishing town of Homer, AK. Writing about my favorite things . . . Real Christianity, Family, Art, Food, Life in Alaska, and, when necessary, politics.

What's Cooking

  • Tortellini Gorgonzola with chicken and shrimp and...chocolate chip cookies. Mmmm good!
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  • Key lime thumb print cookies. Trust me they are to die for. I needed them - notice the glazed over look starting to take me over.